songs that cheer me up

Belle and Sebastian always lifts my mood. Something about their instrumentation, and completely ridiculous but spot-on lyrics. They write great songs about ugly ducklings. I'm listening to "Expectations" because it's currently my favourite off their TigerLily album. The mariachi trumpet is just so bizarrely perfect.

I'm having a blah day. This morning I woke up too early, eager to capture and bottle this start-of-school feeling for the workday. We moved offices and the new ones are really really nice. And now I can bike over the mountain to work (and did).

Unfortunately the workday wears much longer than the average schoolday; my enthusiam expired a few hours ago. I'm feeling the afternoon fatigue with no coffee at hand alas.

This weekend was pretty blah too. If I list the stuff I did, I actually got quite a bit done. (Built a huge campfire, tented up north, went walking and reading, a bit of hammock duty, fun meals with friends, biking, saw Bon Cop, Bad Cop, got awesome deals on clothing I actually needed, got a new fridge. I even cleaned parts of my apartment that had never been cleaned.)

But the weather was drab. And kinda cold. And I'm still tired. And I'm still nursing scabs from my run in with the sidewalk last week (it won the scrap). And (yes still), I'm taking scope of my life in the wake of the relationship hurricane. And real available friends seem thin on the ground.

Yes, i'm whining. life isn't bad. i hope the tone of this entry isn't too depressing! I"m just tired.

I've started to think that life yields diminishing returns. This is not suicidal. It's just an observation. Or rather, I suspect, it's just aging. sigh, maturity.