resurfacing

Is anybody reading these?

I got submerged for a while. Getting dumped sucks. Yes, the whole relationship & circumstances were complicated from the start. And I've never really had to deal with rejection before. And it was done very gently. But withdrawal is still withdrawal.

So most of June and July was spent in a cloud. Some times were fun, but this has not been the best summer of my life.

Last weekend though, I took some friends whitewater canoeing, and I was in my element. It was a beautiful thing. Flexing my competence on those rapids. Camping. Being outdoors for days at a time. Taking the time away from the city was like looking up from your desk and realizing the hours have passed by.

This past weekend I was at my parent's cottage for 4 days & 4 nights. It was pretty fun, and pretty chill. Four times in 2 days my sister and I went running off the dock into the lake, fully clothed. After coming back from running or playing tennis; we stopped only to remove our shoes. And mmmm, corn, peaches, cherries, blueberries. The best of summer.

September's steaming around the corner, my sister's starting her MBA (yay! you rock!) and my thoughts are focused on the future. Working towards my goals. Figuring out my goals.

The canoe trip reconnected me with myself. Reminded me of who I am on my own. What I love and what I do well. What I respect and what I value. I need to keep pursuing those activies, because it's a form of meditation. And anytime you come out of a weekend with "inner peace" written across your forehead, that's a good time. :)

I owe emails to lots of people. I may even have scared one or two by my silence. I feel more recharged now than I have in a long time (well, present insomnia aside). It's time to get back in the swing of things, to start swimming in the current. :)